I am slow to learn sometimes. I don’t understand why.
For example today I took a multivitamin that had made me have an upset stomach every time I have taken it. How many times I have taken it? I don’t remember but I keep thinking maybe today will be different.
Optimism is a beautiful thing but when you deny reality like I did, it doesn’t help me. I kept thinking that perhaps it was what I ate, or how I slept, or how I felt, or the other things I might have eaten or whatever was convenient. The truth is that these multivitamins don’t agree with me, and nothing that I eat before them seems to change that.
Finally I am willing to admit to myself that I can’t take these multivitamins. When we buy something, or believe something, we don’t easily give up that belief. We want to feel we haven’t wasted our time/money, so we often continue to do something that doesn’t help us or others. We continue to take vitamins thinking that “this time” something will be different.
Another example of this. Working from home I sometimes was lazy and didn’t give myself enough space when navigating between tight spaces. I have a few bruises on my body to show for my carelessness. I didn’t realize how bad it had gotten until I saw bruises on all my arms and legs. Then I realized that I need to take better care of myself. I bought some corner bumpers for my desk which are arriving today and going to help me prevent getting bruises. I should have learned from the first bruise that I needed to be more careful.
You have to be honest with yourself and admit when something isn’t working for you. I want to be healthy but I was engaging in behaviors that are not healthy. Today I am growing a little bit. Is there anything in your life that you need to learn from?